The joy + eagerness of the wait
Here we are again - just a couple days from baby’s due date! There was a part of me that was really hoping to go early again, but alas, we just have no control over these things. And this time has actually been a real blessing.
This pregnancy has not been all too different from Andre’s, which makes me suspect that it’s a boy (but who really knows). We are so, so, so unbelievably grateful to have conceived fairly easily this time around (after troubleshooting some hiccups with my cycle likely due to so much nighttime breastfeeding). The timing is actually quite providential, considering three couples we are close to here announced they were all expecting their second child due the same week! We all currently have boys around the same age, so this only adds to the fun.
I haven’t documented the pregnancy much - typical of the second-time, I’m sure. But it doesn’t mean this child is any less loved and desired. It just means I’m spending more time trying to chase a [super active] toddler and explain to him about this new sibling that will enter his world.
Much of our life circumstances have changed over the course of this pregnancy (#storyofourlife), but very much for the better. In late winter and early spring (which was basically winter round 2), we began to realize that what we were doing was not going to be sustainable long term, particularly because we simply knew we were not using the gifts that God had given us as we ought. We also were uncertain about where God would be calling us in the next few years. So over the next several months, we made some drastic changes.
We sold our house (praise God it sold in a couple days with no issues!). We moved back to the city proper into a smaller rental, both for the flexibility and the lack of homeownership headaches as we took some professional risks. I quit my job to be at home. As much as I loved my employer and the mission, it was not the type of work that brought me life. It has been made abundantly clear to me that if I am to do any work outside of my role as wife & mother, it should be related to the passions that have been lit inside of me over the past five years: namely, holistic health and nutrition. So while I will have the next several months at home with the two kids just adjusting and enjoying the time, I plan on beginning a nutrition program in February that I’ve been eyeing for a few years now. Lastly, we are finally diving more fully into Kevin’s work as an artist & educator. We know that the entrepreneur life is something we crave, and it’s at least something we need to give a fair shake. If nothing else, we’ve learned - and I’m really starting to see how valuable that is.
So this pregnancy has been a busy time of change, surrender, and doing our best to follow God’s will - not squandering what we’ve been given. And this past month at home with just Andre has been tremendously fruitful. I love him so much, and I will treasure these last days alone together. At the same time, though, I don’t feel like I will mourn him being an only child. I feel ready to give him a sibling and to see that relationship blossom - more love and joy!
So baby - we are ready when your are! And know that you are entering a family that already loves you so much. We cannot wait to have you join us on this ever-interesting journey we are on.